Hah, missed a couple days of entries now didn't I... anyways.  Today was pretty much productive I guess.  I'm still really behind on summer reading, working on my book and working on my animation.  But they'll get done, I know it.  Sooo... the past couple of days, I've been working, hanging out with Kelly, hanging out with my cousins, driving 8)  This summer has been pretty good.  I've become smarter about using my money, been keeping a money log too.  That's really been helping.  I've got some big plans I hope to accomplish including my trip to Europe.  Other than that, I'm planning on trickin out my desktop.  Gotta get an external hardrive, put the important stuff on it, and reformat my whole computer.  So I got this new game called Loaded Questions.  It's actually pretty fun, at least I think so.  Well, I played with my cousins the other day, it was really fun, but it was just ridiculous that we knew each other so well.  It was waaaaay super obvious.  Yesterday, I played with Julia, Jackie, and Julia's friends.  That was a bit harder.  I knew nothing about those guys.  That still made it fun.  Let's see... what else has happend. 

Oh!  I've been watching Arrested Development with my cousin.  That show is HILARIOUS.  I love it, the way the story presents itself is phenomenal.  Great stuff, I recommend it.  Oh jeez, I've been eating McDonald's way too much.  Ever since Kelly started working there, I've been going there a lot more.  Oh well, I don't eat the big things, just a double cheeseburger here and there.  I came to pick her up from work today, but her mom and brother showed up cause they wanted food, so she went with them.  I really enjoy driving, it's a lot of fun.  I'm a careful driver too, but there's a lot of stuff I need to improve.  Hm.. Haven't hung out with my friend's recently, but hopefully I will on Saturday.  I got into this "new" game, ROSE Online.  It's fun, it's a private server, so yeah.  ya kno.  That's pretty much all I've been up to recently.  I love these days off though, it gives me so much time to think about things and get things done.  I've been working almost everyday for the past 2 weeks.  *sigh* I'm beat.  Today, was alright, not great, but still ok.  I guess.  I got called in early, it was backed up for the longest time, I was on tables for like 2 hours, but it was fine.  There was this one jerk though... he left a fake, plastic quarter, and unscrewed the salt shaker, which spilled everywhere... well, till next time.

goddammit!  I'm so freaking stupid!  I hate school, the work sucks, it takes up ALL my time, and I don't get a damn word of what anything says.  I can't translate worth shit in spanish.  I study for days for history but still make F's on the test.  I nod off in computer science every single day, even when I'm trying my hardest to pay attention.  It's so hard for me to keep up.  It's like EVERYONE crossed some bridge of intelligence and are progressing with their life.  But me, I'm left behind, the stupid little kid.  My GPA is freaking terrible!  I'm probably not going to get accepted to the college I want to go to, my counselor made that pretty clear.  For those who haven't heard that story, I bet it'll be hilarious once you hear it.  So she's asking where everyone wants to go, and as soon as I say Rice, she stares blankly at me and says "Anywhere else?"  Wow... thanks for crushing my dreams.  Man... I hate this.  Sure, I have a good life, but I'm dumb.  I can't say, oh, I go to Health Careers, I have a harder time in school, I don't know what it's like anywhere else.  All I know is, I've gotten a hell of a lot more F's than I have in all my years of education.  At first, I was fine with it.  But its the constant failure after failure after failure that just eats away at my confidence.  I try so DAMN hard, but nothing works.  I bet I've ranted about this subject before, but that only means that my accusations are true.  I don't know why I even bother, what good will it do.  I'll finish high school with my crappy GPA, go to some college that isn't suited for me, and I'll never be able to get the job I want.  I guess in the words of my counselor, "let's be realistic here".  I don't know what to do anymore, I don't wanna go to school anymore.  I'm already WAY past my breaking point and I can say that I'm not healthy, mentally.  I think I'm depressed.  Over the years here at this stupid school, I've attained, if possible, negative confidence.  My self esteem is so low every time I think about school.  And a lot of the times lately, it hasn't been just school.  It's everything.  Everything I've ever been good at, I've been beat.  Something I could say I won at.  Tennis was shit last year.  I suck at the damn game, what's worse, is that it's my best sport.  I wasn't put on for a SINGLE tournament match.  I was put on the team because of pity.  And I knew that all last year.  "We decided to take everyone on the team."  What she really said was that, you tried last year and you failed, and you put in your best effort, so I guess I'll put you on cause I feel sorry for you.  All in all, I've come up with a single conclusion.  I can't do anything right.  A lot of people are probably thinking that I should delete "can't" and stop saying I'm this and that.  Well, tough luck, I tried that, and it came back to bite me in the ass.  I'm done... I lie in bed trying to sleep thinking about this every night.  Yeah I know, I'm a sad person.  Whatever, fuck it.

Hmm... it's been awhile.  I never did update the last day of summer... oh well, can't remember anymore.  I know I spent the day with Kelly, that's really it.  This past year since than has been a challenge for us.  Few problems here and there, but we're ok now, thank god.  I think we're doing better than before, so I'm happy.  Jeez... too many things has been going on, don't know what to say about it all.  Well... congrats to my Kelly!  Top 10 in her class!!  Wow, I couldn't believe it when she told me, I was really happy for her, pissed at myself at the same time, but still, I admire her a lot.  Way to go =]  What else what else... not really much.  School is still kickin my ass.  Recent additions to my video game collection:  Guitar Hero III, PGR1, 007 Agent Under Fire.  Meh, I'll skip to the beginning of this break.

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WINTER BREAK

So, first off, I thought it'd be kool to kick things off with a nice lil party.  I invited a lot of ppl, a decent amount went.  Oh man, that day started out funny/terrible.  After school, I was getting picked up, and I was carrying around this cookie dough all day for Jasroz, but he wasn't there.  Until after school... -_- so I made him take it and he owes me $50.  Anyway, so Julian picks us up and we get into a slight car accident.  The connector at the back of a truck speared Julian's car.  Oh man, he was so lucky, it only dented he license plate that he was goin to renew anyways.  But to make matters worse, we go into Julius' house and the alarm goes off =P  So after a long time of waiting around, I mean I though getting picked up would be quicker, but turns out my friends beat me to my own house... ppl who went... let's see Christian, Julian, Nousha, Sharon, Stephan, Andy, Dennis, Devin, Jacob, and Marissa.  Julian Chistian and Stephan played real guitars while me and everyone else played Guitar hero.  I cooked pizzas yada yada yada... stuff happend with Nousha and she had to leave all early.  Just when we started singing too.  Me and Jacob sang a duet, A Whole New World.  Funny stuff.  Art came over later.  After mostly everyone left, it was just me, Art, my cousins, and Devin.  We played PSO and Super Smash Brothers for the remaninder of the night.  So skipping to the 23rd...

So... awesome day the 23rd was.  I got tickets for the Trans-Siberian Orchestra.  First time, I've been wanting to go for a couple years.  I got Kelly a ticket as a Christmas present along with a ring I gave while we were there.  She kept hounding me on how much the stuff was... psht, not sayin anything.  Diamond emerald ring, it wasn't too much =P  We went to church and a lil bit after, she came over to the house and we hung out for awhile.  My dad took us the the ATnT Center around 6:30ish.  Once we got there, we got passed the ticket checkers and walked around for awhile looking for our seats.  I liked our spot, not too high, not too low, good seeing distance in my opinion.  lasted from 8-11 o'clock.  I wanted to get an autograph, but the line was way too long.  The first part of the show was kool, but put me to sleep.  The narrator's voice was the cause, don't get me wrong, it was kool, but it was just late at night.  Man, there was a guitar battle, and a piano battle.  The piano battle was hoss.  It was the guy's wife and best friend.  So... Master's from Juliard's School of Music or a Berkley's School of Music dropout... w00t dropout!!  Haha.  They played Snoopy... =O  that was my favorite.  The lasers were shooting everywhere >_>  and the stobe lights were practically giving out seizures.  last... the fire... wow.  Kelly and I could feel the fire from our seats O_O  The musicians were really amazing.  The violinist could be playing tag and win while playing the violin.  The singers were really good too.  Loved that night.  Kelly's parents picked us up and they dropped me off.

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CHRISTMAS TIME

Christmas Eve, I worked.  The area manager made us close later than we should've which pissed me off.  I guess that's okay...  I got home around 8 o'clock.  I showered and changed and we went to a Filipino party, first one in a long time.  It was at Alex's house.  That was kool.  At first, Julia and I kept to ourselves and ate some food.  My mom and dad were talking amoungst the parents.  Kimmy, Jezza, Alex, and Abby came down and sang/played christmas songs.  They got money for that.  I played Grace by Klutz and actually did it without mistakes =]  I got some applause and $5, that made me feel like a good pianist =]  Later, we went up and Julia and I played cards, I won at double speed.  Played some Guitar Hero and Wii sports.  Did some magic here and there and then we went home to open presents.  I liked this Christmas, not because of the presents, but I don't know, I just liked it better than other years.  Haha, it was funny too, my dad had a bit much to drink and he was acting a lil loopy.  My sister's got everything they wanted.  Jackie got things for her Wii, a Bratz Game, and some dolls.  Julia got nice jewelry I helped pick out and a GPS for her car.  And I got the laptop I've been waiting for for awhile ^^  Everyone was happy, even my dad got an mp3 player he wanted.

The next day, we went out to lunch at Abby's house.  More fun.  Meynard, Meslin, and Josh were there.  They showed me Dr.Tran and then we wanted to go out places, but everywhere was closed.  I saw Kelly at church that morning and she gave me a present!  I love it so much, she got me this RC Ferrari.  It's pretty sweet, I'm having fun with it.  But anyways, on with the day, since we didn't really have much to do, we were just throwin out ideas.  We decided to go to the Synagogue (Jew and Tian's house)  Meynard and everyone came along with us.  We sang karaoke and ate food.  Fun!  Later, they had to leave and Art and Tasha came over.  We played a little more PSO and then started to play hide and seek.  That was so much fun!  We have to do it again.  We kinda got in trouble though, not really, but we had to stop playing, so we played Charades.  That went swimmingly.  I won with a whopping 9, second place was Art with 4 pts.  Hehe, Tasha was last with 1 pt.  They had to leave, I spent the night.  The next morning we had to bring Tito back to the airport.  After we dropped him off, we ate at Jason's Deli.  That was so good =]  Haven't been there in awhile.  Haha, these three guys walked in and they had really long hair.  I said something kinda mean, but it was still funny.  xD  Went over to Sam Ash (sp?) and looked at the synth pianos.  Good lord I want one of those.  They're so kool.  We spent like an hour and a half there.  I went home and they went to do other things.  Kelly came over to the house and we played Guitar Hero and watched the 40 Year Old Virgin on tv.  Later, Kelly and I had some fun ;]  That was nice.  Tian and Jew came over to my house and spent the night.  Kelly left shortly.

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POST CHRISTMAS

The rest of the week, I can't really remember much.  But it's been work at Bill Millers, PSO at night with Tian, Jew, and Art, Jackie too sometimes.  And thats pretty much it, I gotta start on my homework.  I plan to do that on Tuesday.  I really needa get on that.  I know I can do it.  Man, the other day at work though, I had to walk in the dumpster.  Another day, I closed with Mark, kool guy, terrible closer, he's so slow -_- took TWO hours just to get the back done.  Sheesh.  I put in 30 hours, so I'm gonna like my paycheck this Friday.  I work again tomorrow on Monday and Saturday.  Tian's birthday was on the 28th too, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIFTEEN YEAR OLD! =]  Yeah... now on to today.

Yesterday night was kool.  After work, I went to Best Buy with Julia and Alex.  Played Guitar Hero and showed some people up. XP  Side note though... don't play Guitar Hero on the computer... SUPER LAG!  O_O no joke.  Alex knows...  Good side note... I might get a job at Best Buy!  Sweet!  As much as I like working at Bill Millers... *cough* actually I don't, but I do at the same time.  The pay is real good, I'll miss the people if I leave though, they're all really kool.  But I think it'd be kool to work at Best Buy.  Around computers... oh man, dream teenage job for me.  When we got to my house, Art came over, so did Jew and Tian.  We played PSO... again.  hahahaha.  after, we watched Super Bad.  This morning, I woke up and we all basically played PSO the whole day again.  I didn't go to church and get this, the day I don't, my dad and my sister do... what the heck!?  I wanna go to church with them and they never do and the one day I don't, they do.  Weird... but yeah, we watched Super Bad deleted scenes and gag reels.  Funny stuff right there ^^  Tian and Jew went to church and then came back.  Then left again to eat with their mom.  I did stuff on the computer and drew a few more pictures for this project I'm making.  But man... I don't know if I'll have this project done in time.  I mean, it IS already late, sorry Kelly.  But yeah, now I'm here at Christian and Julian's house.  Played Jew a round in Bleach and won... started writing this entry... then shit happend... I'm a lil sad and pissed off right now.  I couldn't do anything, I don't like seeing that shit, but what are you gonna do, it's not my business, I shouldn't have stepped in, my bad... but still, they're my cousins, I couldn't just sit there.  Anyways, I think it's time to end this entry and hopefully keep it recent?  Haha, we'll see.  Jordash out...

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Special UPDATE...
New Nickname: Ryubusa
New Car Wanted: Ferarri Fiorano 599
New Look: Stacheless... RIP Moustache...

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QUOTES OF THE DAY (YEAR?)

- "Jagerbombs"
- "Effin skank"

Hey did you call?
Yeah, but it's too late now.
Oh, sorry, I was watching a movie.
Hey, you listen to me, no movie shall be watched when Jordan Aluyen calls.

- "Girls are grody!"

Movies to Watch
- Oh Shit, it's Dr.Tran
- Q is for Dr. Tran
- 3, 2, 1, Dr. Tran

- Baby Kenyan

- "It's time to kick ass and chew bubble gum, and I'm all outa gum."

- Presposterone

- Fizzbitch!

- TURBO PUNS

- GUN!

- Metal Energy Legs (Android Kenyan)

- Snaaaaake eyeees!

- "Fuck you, I'm buying a game!"

- "You want me to fucking leave you here?!"

- "Smart people eat."